A note to my dad

Dad I miss you, I rember the night you left, when I ran after you truck and all you would tell we was “I can’t do this anymore” I just wish you could have seen me and mommy that night the way trey wouldn’t believe me when I told him you left. You miss out on so much of our lives, I wish you could see your son, I wish you were here, to see me and trey grow up, instead of just here every 6 months, I miss you so much, I wish you and mommy could just work everything out and we could be a family again, I miss that, you know before all the fighting, when we were “happy.” I rember when we would take family trips to the beach and go out of town. I hated when you missed my birthdays, heack I still do, I miss my daddy there to help me blow out my candles, I can’t believe it’s been 3 years scence you left, it feels like you left just yesterday, And the reason I never call is I just try and forget you know. I know this sounds bad but talking to you makes me rember all the nights of fighting, yelling, screaming, crying. I still do that now, you think after 3years I would have stopped by now, mom things I need to let it all out, but I hate crying, just the way I makes me feel like I have hit my lowest point, I can’t take that feeling, I mean every time I hear a sad song I cry, I wish you could see me now, how much I have changed scene you REALLY been around me, I have grown up so much, I wish I had you in my life, sometimes it feels weird calling you “dad” I mean you’re never hear, you really don’t realize me and trey, he needs his dad, henrys not really the best dad in the world, I hate the way mom thinks he’s perfect she tries to get me to call him dad, I won’t, he’s not a dad ether, I guess you could say I don’t have a dad in some ways, your never around, and henrys sure as hell ant my dad, shit now I’m crying. I hate it when Henry comes home and yells, the way he does, I hate it. He’s too loud, I miss the way me and you would sneak icing and eat it, I rember mom would get so mad, I still do that now, sneak icing , I think of you every time. But it doesn’t taste as good without you, I rember I would get it all over me, I rember Christmas, how we would always get a real tree, we still do that, but it doesn’t smell as good now that your gone, I rember how you would put me on your shoulders and let me put the angel up, I miss that, Henry puts it up now, although I’m almost tall enough to put it up myself, I miss plating with your hair, the way you always had long hair I miss that, I miss the trailer, I know that’s hard to believe but I had so many memories, it’s like historic, in my point of view that whole town is.